Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Energy SOS

In love. 

I have never been so tired in all of my life. Three children three and under, while recovering from labor, is serious business. I have no idea how I'm going to function when Eric goes back to work. I wish I were joking, but I'm so not, haha.

When I'm not feeding a baby, I'm changing a baby. When I'm not changing a baby, I'm protecting him from flying objects and wire whisks and poking fingers and anything else my children get a hold of. The girls have been EXTRA mischievous the past few days. Then there's the laundry and toy damage control and feeding two other children and dishes...normal chores made harder by the fact that I'm also "Mommy: milkmaid and master defender of newborn heads." Oh, and I'm averaging about three hours of sleep per night. That kind of makes a difference, too.

I'm not unhappy about any of it (really and truly), but I will admit to being incredibly frustrated that my body can't keep up with my brain. I want to be able to do all of the things I always do, but I can't. About the time I normally sit down to blog each evening, I can't even lift my fingers to type. Reagan has his days and nights mixed up, so sleep is precious and I take it when I can get it.

There is so much to share or to soon be shared...Reagan's birth story and his just before we welcomed our son...tonight is Halloween - which by the way, I totally keep forgetting about. I have no idea when I'll be able to catch up, but hopefully soon. I hope my body heals, my son straightens out, and we're in a new, more manageable routine sooner than later.

Even with our long nights, I will say Reagan is the BEST baby. He is adorable and compliant, and he really does sleep a lot, he's just confused at the moment, haha. Yes, we know how to fix the problem, but it's only been a few days so it's going to take a bit to get there.

What I really long for most of all is the ability to sit down and record every single detail of Reagan that I don't want to forget...his peach fuzz skin and his blonde eyelashes...what a funny little poop factory he is. I don't want my lack of energy to steal my time or my memories away. So if you have any extra oomph to spare today, I'm begging you to bottle it up and send it my way.

I'm really looking forward to tonight's festivities. I can't wait to see everyone's kiddos all dressed up and having fun! I haven't been out of the house since Sunday, so hopefully I'll be able to get out and get a little fresh air. I think it will make a big difference!

I'm wrapping this one up with an apology for sounding like a downer, and by letting you know that things really are great. Exhausting, but great. I love my family so much. It can only look up from here!


Christine Pettijohn said...

Hang in there. It will get easier. If you need anything let us know.

Cassie said...

this too shall pass. i remember for two weeks straight when stella HATED henry. the second she saw him, tears, screaming. and then all i could do was cry too. but before i knew it it was over and things only got better. yay!

Sarah said...

You don't sound like a downer whatsoever, you sound like and exhausted Mommy :)

And you are making all my doubts & fears of bringing this 3rd baby home a reality haha...ha :S

Remember... the house work can wait. AND what my mom keeps reminding me over & over again "it takes a village to raise a child (or three)"

I absolutely adore that picture of you & your sonshine. Makes me awe everytime I see it :)

Kiara M. said...

I think you are doing a fantastic job. Please call if you need anything at all, seriously. I am here at home all day, and let's be real, life gets messy with a newborn. I remember it well. Keep up the good work mama! Praying for strength for you! Get some fresh air, it really will help!

Heather said...

Oh girl...keep your chin up!! It's all up hill from here. You are such an amazing woman to be taking all this on...I know that I would not be able to handle all that you are for one second. Stay strong sister!!

Adrien said...

Thank you all. :) We are receiving A LOT of help! Don't know what we'd do with our friends and family around us!

Sarah - don't be scared. Haha. Hopefully Liam will have a great sleep schedule, because I'm sure it would make all the difference. And the rewards far outweigh anything else. I wouldn't take him back. :D


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